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I'm doing it again. Or rather, I'm not doing it, and that's the problem. The t_m stuff is just not happening for me right now.

I'm going to have to let some of the muses go. One at least, maybe two. Or more.

And I'm avoiding making the decision any way I can. Right now I'm turning a bunch of the old entries from friends only to public. Because I almost can't face this right now.

I love the muses, but I can't do this anymore. I can't pretend I know what I'm doing, holding onto these muses when I can't write a single thing for them, or at least that's how it seems.

I'm starting to miss pellaeon's endless angst. It annoyed me, but the stuff I wrote with him was good, for the most part.

Actually, no. I take that back. The problem I had with Gil is the same problem I'm having with some of the others right now. There's this one angle they've got, and once you exhaust it, what do you do?

Right now I have:

Bella - "I'm evil. Eeeevil!"
Galen - "I am moody."
Irina - "I am invisible. Oh, and misunderstood."
Anna - "I'm just boring."

I'm torn. I want to be able to write these four, but it's just not happening. So I'm torn between keeping them and swapping out one or more of them for someone else. Who else? Well, I could make a list, but there are certainly options.

I think I could maybe use some advice here.